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For me Dreamwidth and livejournal were a personal journaling place. In the old days I posted my fic here, but it was not a fannish journal. Mostly I wanted to post about the sky or the kids or the people I'd seen while walking to the station.

It wasn't a meta or a discussion place. It was my personal journal for 13 years. It felt self-centered, frequently, because it was and I couldn't share other people's stories anyway.

I've long lost my (always limited) ability to create a conversation here.

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Then while I was miserable and sleep deprived with (the gorgeous) child number two, I found a fandom. And after poking around I inserted myself awkwardly onto tumblr. But after four to six months I found it sort of delightful. I discussed the show and people would talk back in their own spaces. Everything had a ripple effect. And I found people who wanted to talk to me. I am privileged to have made two to five long term friends and many many delightful acquaintances and cohorts.

That show is over. For now it's still a busy time, and I am ficcing and metaing. I'm also writing non-fanfiction fiction, looking to edit that first novel with a falling-down house full of twenty-somethings and all the world's beaches and researching to start a second with women with shoulders, and thunderstorms, and indie music and the outback.

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So I don't know what to do. I'm not worried now. Maybe I should work on finding my people here. Maybe I should facebook or twitter. I'd like to follow everyone I like to every place they are but it's not really practical.

I considered Yuletide but I don't have any tiny little fandoms I am secretly dreaming of fic in. Except Wire in the Blood and Terminator The Sarah Connor Chronicles. Those. Hmmm.

Okay. That's the state of my social media :)